Places

Haha so i think im gonna join the break dance club.... oh shit.... I havent done that in so long and i was never really that good. Wish me luck....

Work is going great. Im seeing more hours because im good at it....

School is well school lol

I am also going to push hard with p90x this week..... 12 pounds cant be all im gonna drop....

short post this time cause im not feeling it

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Its about damn time......

For starters Im doing really well emotionally... I have gone on the rollercoaster and am seeing the end of the tunnel. Im becoming me again and its so nice to see that I still have it. It being the swagger and substance to meet new people and do school.

So moving on.... I have started to realize that me and ashley have something refreshing going on.... We dont have to be talking 24/7 to understand how we feel. We're just letting it happen and it feels great. Only bad thing that I can see out of it is that she doesnt talk me out of buying new shoes lol. God my new kicks are so fresh. Sole Classics is the place to be so thanks for that intro. I bought all navy dunks that have orange white and gray tiger stripes running through them.... They're insane and freshley snipes lol.

I feel somewhat like im getting back on track and need to continue this pace because its better for me this way.

My friends all have my back and it feels good to know that they are just as salty as I am. The only person who knows everything is chris and he has been telling me since day one to just move on. Im listening now and owe him a huge thank u.

Hope all is well....

DSF

This one is for me

Well D ur an idiot.... U've let this girl walk all over u from day one.  It ends today.......

Im so sick of feeling like i dont belong around someone because of how they feel.... NEWS FLASH he'll control u just give it time....

So today I have to do Hw and work on AE shes legit as hell.  Im not gonna rush this shit im just gonna let it ride into where i think will be good time to strike.

Ive surrounded myself with an amazing crowd the last couple weeks excuse me for trying to include anyone else....

Life is good. Im better now because this feeling inside me just vanished..... Im over it and done feeling incomplete because ur too dumb to realize who i am. Who he is and why ur attracted to him. so fuck it let him touch u and take calls at dinner, let him run all over u while ur trying to accomplish ur dream.

Smooth as the Cruise boat floats when Im walking.....

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Its YOU Again :)

I have one sentence to write in this blog....

Its good to see the girl I fell for.

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Ok so that wasnt a shot at u saying that ur doing things wrong im just asking why its me u know? I understand that i give amazing advice and push u to get what u want. I also understnad that u know that and its ok for u to come to me with it but in the same token think about what u really want....

Do u want to have to search for a peson that consoles u when im gone if he doesnt? Like i just feel that if u were given the right advice in the beginning then it would have changed things with our convos.....

On to other things... Im pretty sure the progress with ashley is gone because we didnt hang out last night after softball..... Jamie didnt want to so i didnt..... that was dumb

I pitched last night and we won.... Never done it before lol.

GO BUCKS!

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What is this feeling in the pit of my stomach?

Ok after starting off on the right foot today I ended on a really low one. Idk why i allowed myself to sink into another funk.  I thought things were going great but thats not the case. Evidently i cant have these butterflies. Nor can I have happiness without it being tainted in some manner.... It hurts that im on the hook for the problems but not for the good times.... Why am I the subject of the drama when u "have" him? Is he supposed to just accept u without the things that ur telling me? Im so confused.... Yeah im here for u and always will be. What is the answer for me? Why am I the one that needs to console u.... why do i have to push u? Why are u coming to me with this?

Its not that I dont want u to but im just asking why?

Im trying to give u the freedom and dthe space that u would want and need. But evidently Im the only person who will tell u what u need to hear. If u really felt like this was a good decision because of feelings then u wouldnt have come to me with this.... He would have been there texting u or talkin to u about it.

Next I think I need to just man up and realize that im supposed to be the backbone for me right now.... sure Ashley is great and shes fun and a good person.... If I'm so happy with this why am i sstill talking to anyone else? What am I looking for? Why do I feel like the person to cater to the problems because u dont want him to feel like ur unstable?..... It sucks for me to be that guy....

I miss it all I wish it all were back to normal but u know what? I am here but one day I need to be free......

One day....

Date Night

WARNING IF U DONT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT MY DATE NIGHT THEN CONTINUE DOWN PAGE lol!!!!!!!!!

First things first i miss u! Thats all about that :)

Im goin on a date tonight... First one since HCS Im excited actually she seems like a legit girl. Low maintenance and isnt really into drama... Im kind of excited because we're going to see date night and then im taking her home... No good night kiss no nothing lol.... Im gonna do this one right try building up to that point. Shes cool and totally understands about everything. Ummm..... shes also trying to go to a reds game then kings island soon with Hindinho and her friend so itll be a good time.

Other than that some of the servers at eddies have expressed interest... im not tryin to do anything cause they are sending me pix of themselves... enough said no im not into hoes lol


HERES WHERE TO START IF THE LOVE LIFE IS SKIPPED LOL!!!!!

Lets see ive seen a drastic change in my body... im dropping weight and getting lean. Up to 10 pounds now... only 15 more....  

Music is goin i have about 18 songs down that can actually work on an album...  Beats are the hard part.... I need to either get a mac and use garageband or actually buy protools which is like a grand either way.... shit i may get both....

Chris and i are talking about living together next year which will be sweet. Ummm what else

Im applying to grad school in 5 places.... OSU, Texas, UCLA, AKRON, MIAMI.....

Hopefully i get in

Theres the update :)

Dante

Hello I am dante and Im addicted to getting hurt

Its Dante... no ty in the beginning.... thanks

Finally Fast dot com

Ok so its been a little bit of time since i really poured myself into this. I just want to start with me

Im doing well enjoying the time I have left because tomorrow im getting closer to death... Not that much closer but nonetheless closer lol. I've been acting a fool killing my mind of new and different ways to meet new people. I think the job will certainly help that but idk if it will get me out of my shell.... Im starting to realize that all the little insecurities of blame and guilt that i've had with relationships is really changing how i act. So im starting to make an effort to be the party..... So now the party dont start till i walk in....

I used to have the school first then everything after mentality and im getting back to it. I just needed someone to wake me up for it. Thanks HCS. Next in regards to your post HCS ur life will change if u let it. One piece of advice if u choose to take it run with it if not its totally cool. Dont settle for anything less than what u want. If ur gonna make it then make it. Allow ur mind to change about everything in ur life and u may see a soft spot in the fashion world for u to burst onto the scene....

Chi Chi is cool. Im not going after her title or one for me. I just dont need that lol. I realized that life is too short to be spent shadowed by ghosts of the past. Everyone has them but I want to be the 1 not 1 of the 4 or whatever number. So im gonna wait until the right moment for me. 

Im on this plane like an indian
Flyin out to cali no I aint a thespian
Game is clutch ur not safe if ur a lesbian
Catchin all my lines quick call urself an ESPYian
Simply a rider homie haha yeah equestrian.....


I gots rhymes for days.....
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Where to start....

Ok so i start my new job tonight.... then i have a soccer game.... then i have to wingman for jamie with a girl name jaime.... Confusing....

School is going well I like almost all of my classes lol. Looks like life is turning around.

My sleepless nights still hold throughout the night but its cool cause i just watch tv. Im not really thinking about love and to be loved or anything of the sort. Im just looking for the next happy thought. HCS things between us are going well thanks for stickin through the tough times....

Other than than easter was legit soooo much food....

I got ushers new cd... its pretty good actually

Living for the dreams that I create when i look into my future.

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Funny how the world works

Lest see last night I was pretty drunk by 11 lol I got picked up by my sis. Talked to a couple girls from england ahaha jamie needed a wingman. It was kinda funny though cause they were not hot at all I just didnt want to break it to him. Lets see I went on fire in bp and ran the game out. It was sick. Ummmm made 20 in a bet with fifa lol. I am also planning my own trip to australia with one of my buds from gradeschool. Saw HCS yesterday. Went well.

Hangover game over nigga thats it..... YOGA FLAME

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